Pennsylvania, West-Virginia, Ohio

After a stressfull last two weeks of school I've finally made my way into the fun months of this year. I have nothing to do, no worries on my mind and will soon be returning home, so it's time for me to really enjoy everything around me.
There was graduation, a couple of parties and then monday I took of to go visit my aunt Mary in Pennsylvania.

The bus left at 11pm, and after dinner at a friends house I left rainy NY. I ended up sleeping on the bus, not even noticing the storm that suposivly went on that night. At 6.15 am,45 min early, we arrived in downtown Pittsburgh. Pittsburgh was a change coming from NY. Hills filled with greenes surrounding the city and friendly people working at the coffee shop.
She even gave me directions, allowing me to meet up with Steve(Mary's son) and Hallie to drive down to Georgetown.

We had breakfast on the way and after about 1 hour we arrived at the house. Gosh it was nice, birds singing, the smell of grass, I could see some farms around.
Mary and I talked and I got to know more about them.
I played a little with Katie, the little girl and later on in the afternoon Ciara came home. We had a bbq dinner and then Mary and I went back to her home, downstairs, and I ended up falling a sleep at 7 pm sleeping allthrough the night waking up at 10 am. I guess I really needed some rest.

Mary and I had breakfast and we drove to West-Virginia to see the graveyard where the Nutters are burried. I saw the graves, that lay up on a hill overlooking the westvirginian farmland. To get up there you had to drive up this old country road. On our way back, we crossed the river, over to Ohio. She showed me west-liverpool where she had grown up.

I'm really seeing a whole other side to the US by beeing here. People are nice and the pace is slow. The grass is green and the sky is blue and all you can hear for miles is dogs barking and birds singing.

End in sight

I stand at the point of what it will all come down to. The final weeks of my exchange, my last goodbyes to U.S.A. Questions cloud my mind, distracting me from finals, papers and all sorts of other stuff I should be doing.

Questions about fulfilling my hopes and expectations of this trip. Questions about what growth I have gone through being away. Questions what it will be like coming home again. It may be the slight hangover talking but it's a strange place to find yourself in. Don't get me wrong, it'll be great to be home again, seeing friends and family, being where you know it well. But I will miss the individual life I had. It was me in this place and nothing else, I brought nothing with me from home(I mean mentally). There was no burden of responsibilities towards people, no answers that I had to give about any particular thing and going back will mean people will have certain expectations.

These expectations can be good, but after 4 months of doing exactly what I wanted whenever I wanted I will have to get used to being a part of something greater then myself.

I guess what it has all come down to, is that I have realized more then ever who I am and wish to be, realizing that somethings need to be let go off in order to move forward, and that may be the hardest thing to do when I get back home.
Cutting off what I no longer need or want.

But in every end, there's a beginning, and that is what I'm seeing.